The female star is obedient and domineering, and she has a crush on me

Chapter 159 You Are Actually the Sun

"Sister Jiang would be very happy if she knew you praised her medical skills so much, but my sleep has improved a lot. I used to be always scared at night."

She sat up again and straightened her messy collar. "I don't know what I'm afraid of. I'm afraid of the unknown. I'm also afraid of hearing my phone ring, whether it's an incoming call or an app reminder. I often dream of dragging my parents down a dark alley with no way out. They are very heavy, and I'm exhausted. I cry and beg them to go a little further. I'm so anxious that I wake up even more tired than before I woke up."

Over time, both the memory and the person become fuzzy. The things that were put away in the last second cannot be remembered the moment the person turns around. It is also impossible to devote oneself to studying and the only thing that can be done is to do some brainless things to keep life busy.

"When you sleep with me, things get much better. I won't be afraid when I hold you or hold your hand. It was like this before. I've been taking medicine for a while now, and I don't feel scared when I sleep anymore. I feel much more relaxed. Or maybe... I've let it go on my own. It's great."

Qin Yuhuan took off her slippers and put her feet on the sofa. The soft sofa collapsed due to her movements. She rested her head on Ziyi's shoulder and said, "I will be fine. I look forward to every day with Xiaozi around."

"That's right," Ziyi pinched Qin Yuhuan's chin, "You are mine in this life, and I am yours too. You have to spend it with me, otherwise I will be so pitiful and miserable."

Qin Yu smiled and responded, "You are my surprise this year. I will spend my whole life cherishing this surprise."

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Ziyi had not yet sought settlement with Shu Baizhu regarding Shi Nianzhi's matter, but Shu Baizhu had gone to her first.

Ziyi looked at the haggard face of the man in the video, feeling both headache and helplessness, "What exactly do you want to do? Just let yourself go."

Why do you always get into trouble with yourself?

"I just want to get everything back on track, Xiaozi."

Shu Baizhu's eyes were nostalgic and greedy. Her fingertips traced Ziyi's eyebrows and eyes through the phone screen. At this moment, the scene of Ziyi covered with a white cloth appeared in front of her again, making her unable to tell whether it was real or fake. She murmured in a low voice: "You all told me to go back, Xiaozi, where should I go back to? I am Shu Baizhu..."

"Qin Yuhuan chose to leave on her own. It has nothing to do with you or me. She should go back to her own path. As long as all of us stay on the same path, you will come back, right, Xiaozi?"

"Shu Baizhu, why do you know so much?" Ziyi frowned, "You know so much about Qin Yuhuan, but I never knew anything about it."

"Qin Yuhuan left behind a box of diaries." Shu Baizhu did not shy away from talking about it. "The second year after she left, her friend found me on the set and wanted me to hand over the diaries to you."

At that time, Qiao Yuning begged her earnestly, saying that she didn't want her best friend's ten-year secret love to not even have the qualification to be forgotten.

The dead are gone, she just wants her friend to leave without any regrets.

"I didn't give it to you." Shu Baizhu didn't know why. She put away Qin Yuhuan's belongings and took them out to look at them occasionally. "But I go to pay tribute to her every year and place a bouquet of flowers in front of her tombstone. Her tomb is in the Jinjiao Cemetery in the suburbs of Jincheng."

It is the cheapest cemetery in Jincheng, and you can buy a shelter for more than 20,000 yuan.

"You never knew her, because that's who you are, Xiaozi." Shu Baizhu seemed a little moved, "Your world is big, but also small."

When Ziyi likes someone, there is only this person left in her heart and eyes, and no one else can enter her world.

In the past, she was the only one who enjoyed this.

"What's written in the diary?" Ziyi didn't know that Qin Yuhuan had the habit of writing a diary. When she was around, Qin Yuhuan seemed to never write a diary.

"It's a lot. What I got was the part starting from high school, which was also very fragmentary." But most of them were related to Ziyi.

More than 70% of all the diaries were written for pleasure, and a small part was about family matters and my parents' matters. Later on, the diaries became notepads, with some plans that seemed to be to be done, and I would tick the ones I had done and cross the ones I had not done.

"Go back, Shu Baizhu. It's impossible for us to do this." Ziyi needed to use almost all of her manners to maintain her patience with Shu Baizhu. If Shu Baizhu continued to make trouble, she was not sure whether she would vent her anger at Shu Baizhu.

"Why is it impossible?" Shu Baizhu was very anxious. "Xiaozi, you love me, and I love you too. We can start over. I don't care about my parents and brother anymore, and I don't care about their thoughts. Believe me, I will treat you well, and don't be angry with me."

The words "Don't be angry with me" made Ziyi feel dazed.

Shu Baizhu's eyes were filled with tears. Her haggard face was pale as if she had not had a good rest for a long time. Even her hair was messy. She remembered that when she was a teenager, Shu Baizhu walked a very long way just to buy her a bowl of noodles.

She also remembered that Shu Baizhu and her family went out traveling. Because her family was there, they had less contact, and she was a little unhappy.

When they came back, they found out that Shu Baizhu did not go to the tourist attractions with her family. She took several subways and buses and went to buy a bracelet she liked. She hid it in a jewelry box and sent it with a handwritten apology letter.

"Why?" Anger rose in his heart, "Shu Baizhu, why do you want to destroy the last bit of our relationship?"

She just wanted to become alienated strangers with Shu Baizhu, but Shu Baizhu was forcing her to destroy the beautiful and hazy memories of her youth. Once the memories were smeared with the cruelty of reality, a bottomless ravine seemed to be opened invisibly.

Without waiting for Shu Baizhu to say anything, Ziyi hung up the video.

Even when Qin Yuhuan approached, Ziyi's emotions had not subsided. It was not only because the memories of her childhood had been distorted beyond recognition, but also because of other reasons.

"Diary? I have one." Qin Yuhuan's mood seemed unaffected. "If you want to see it, I'll find it and show it to you. The one Yu Ning gave me should be the one I started writing in high school, but in fact, the diary I have kept with me has been since elementary school. Xiaozi, you can see the whole me. This time it's not a failed handover, I gave it to you personally."

"I..." Ziyi was stunned, "Can I?"

"Of course, I have no secrets from you, just like you told me frankly about Shu Baizhu." Qin Yuhuan ruffled Ziyi's hair and joked, "Although I feel a little sad that Xiaozi's memories have been destroyed, but... Xiaozi has read my diary, can I take this opportunity to mix in with Xiaozi's memories?"

The mood that had been depressed for the whole morning suddenly became much lighter. Ziyi couldn't help but smile and replied, "Yes."

Qin Yuhuan smiled and curved his eyes: "That would be great, I can occupy Xiaozi from all angles without any blind spots."

"You always..." Ziyi hugged Qin Yuhuan lightly, and had to be careful not to wrinkle her costume when filming, "You said I was the sun, but actually you are."

"Isn't it good? I am also very useful." Xiao Qin showed some pride and stretched out his hand to Ziyi. "Hold my hand quickly. I will have to start working again soon. By then, Xiao Ziyi will just cry in the corner by herself. How pitiful."

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