NFBE Chapter 487
Chapter 487
Ken felt that he had given up a lot of things, and only his children were the only concern he could not let go of.But now, there is nothing left.
Mary looked at Ken's lonely back, and she already had an idea in her heart.She must help Ken, he is still young and can choose a new life, his current decadence can only become an obstacle to his progress.
In fact, there are still many people who can't really live.After many people get married at the age of 28, they seem to become walking dead.They don't know why they live.Maybe it's for the family, maybe it's for the children, maybe it's for the barely enough salary.
But after another ten years, they will find that life is still going on, but the meaning is no longer there.
It seems that overnight, people are old, and then they will enter the grave.You don't need to fight for anything, don't care, most of them just get by.
Mary spent a long time coping with society when she got out of prison.She was too stunned to walk even the first time she went to the supermarket.The world is really changing so fast.Those colorful commodities seem to be like magic.
It was the first time she used a mobile phone to send a message, and the first time she used a computer to watch a movie online. She seemed to feel like an alien.
For a while, she was very afraid, she felt that she no longer belonged to this world, she could not know this world, and she was also forgotten by this world.She seems to be alive 30 years ago.
If it weren't for the company of Amy and Chris, she might have lost all confidence long ago, and she might even go to a dead end.
Mary didn't want Ken to waste his precious youth. Although he was no longer young, he still had time and energy.He is now in good health and able to dominate everything on his own.
On this day, Ken came home from work. He bought a snack in a small shop on the street, which was Mary's favorite snack.He was in a better mood when Mary was with him during this time.At least not so lonely.When he is depressed, he can have someone to chat with him.
Ken came home but didn't see Mary. He was wondering why Mary was out at this time.At this moment Mary opened the door and came home.
She has a brand new guitar in her hand.
"Mary? Why did you buy a guitar?" Ken was very puzzled, and he stepped forward to help Mary take things down.
Mary was out all day and found what had been Ken's favorite guitar.
"Open it and see."
Ken opened it with a strange face, and then showed an expression of disbelief. He looked at the guitar and touched it involuntarily.That's how the guitar feels.So smooth and so comfortable.
Mary saw Ken's reaction with satisfaction.When Ken was 12 years old, he wanted this guitar and placed it in the most prominent position in the window.That year, the guitar had just been launched, and it was used by one of the hottest bands in an advertisement.
Ken had been fond of music since he was a child, and he was already a good guitar player, and he also owned a second-hand guitar that was given to him by his cousin as a gift.
But this one was Ken's favorite, and he never forgot it after a long time.Mary knew what was on his mind, but that guitar was really expensive for them at that time.
Ken has always been a very good boy, he never asks for things.And the family also told him that the family really couldn't afford it.He just went to the shop window every day after school to have a look.
The little boy's thoughts are easy to discover, and Mary has seen Ken lingering outside the window more than once.
When the guitar was finally bought, Ken was so disappointed when he got home that time that he didn't even come out for dinner.Mary made him a fruit salad supper to comfort him.
Although many years have passed, Mary always remembers that scene.Ken was a kid with dreams, and she felt he was going to be successful one day, musically.able to prove his worth.
But after so many years, Mary never thought that Ken would live like this.Although life is so ruthless and cruel, it can change a person's trajectory beyond recognition.But Mary has always felt that Ken's talent is unique. He is a very sensitive and emotional child.So his perception of music is different.Finer than most.
Some people have brilliance in their bodies, but they are ruthlessly buried, and their advantages and specialties are not even discovered in their whole life.
And Ken is talented, but because of life, he buried his talent.
"Why did you give me this guitar at this time. Mary, I have sworn off music. I am old, not a teenager, 20 years old. I don't need these things at all in my current job."
Ken closed the bag, there was no glory and expectation in his eyes, only some sadness and loneliness.When a person is in the most embarrassing time, he sees the dream he once had, and his mood is really complicated and uncomfortable.
Decades ago, he admired it and even pursued him. Mary and his family didn’t know how much effort the 12-year-old boy had put in for this guitar. He went out early in the morning to deliver newspapers and milk to others. , and then mow the grass for others.Working almost rain or shine, I just hope that one day I can save enough money to buy that guitar.
However, the guitar was finally sold when he was only short of a third of the money.His dreams were shattered, and the guitar was a limited edition, signed by his favorite band.
"Ken, do you still remember what you said when you were a child, you said that you want to have a big concert, and many people will come to listen to your songs. You also need to be an excellent musician. Have you forgotten it?"
"That was a thing in the past. How could it be possible to take what the children said seriously. When you were young, you still wanted to be a pilot, a scientist, and didn't you also want to open a restaurant when you were young? Jeff wanted to be an astronaut, but in the end he did a real estate agent."
Ken didn't want to discuss this matter anymore. Because of his momentary confusion, his ex-wife was completely disappointed in him.Ended up messing everything up.So since then, he never touched any musical instruments, and even seldom went to concerts again.
He didn't want to recall the failed past, which represented his childishness and ignorance.
But Mary walked up to him and said seriously: "I think you made a mistake, what do you have now? Your job is just a subsistence position, the value is equivalent to a part-time job in a restaurant. The salary you get Just over half of your ex-wife's. This job just kills time, makes you useless, and doesn't even save your pension. What else do you have?"
These words were indeed serious enough, and Ken was a little surprised by her poisonous tongue.
"You, why do you say that."
"What I said is also true. What do you have now? The house you live in is a rental house, the car you drive is a second-hand car, no high income, no stable job, no dream, no pursuit. You are muddled, what else do you have? can be lost?
Ken was in a very difficult mood at the moment. In front of him was his sister whom he hadn't seen for many years, and also the sister who had the closest relationship with him back then.
She came here to see him, and to help take care of him, and he showed her the worst, most downcast side of herself.Originally, he would have thought that she would always comfort him.It became a tree hole that he could talk about, but he found that he was wrong.This sister is always a maverick.When she was at home before, she was also the most special one.
"Ken, have you ever thought about why you are the way you are now. You have no confidence and no future. You can't blame your ex-wife, your children, or even the guitar and music. You can only blame you I never know what I need and what I should do.”
Mary poured herself and Ken both a cup of hot chocolate.She motioned for Ken to sit down.She needs to have another deep heart-to-heart talk with this brother.Time waits for no one, and she can't let Ken continue wasting his talent and his time.
If there are miracles in the world, they must be created by human efforts, and no one can succeed casually.Even if he is a genius.Ken has been through a lot, and he doesn't have any family for him to raise.He doesn't have any financial burdens and emotional sacrifices that he needs.
"You have nothing to worry about now, and no one can stop you anymore. Aren't you happy? You have a gift, even if you let it wear away for a while, but it is a gift from God, you just have to develop it , I think there will be a new turning point soon, life is like this, and there are often unexpected results."
Ken ate his snack, he was silent.
He has not thought about music for many years and abandoned his original hobbies.Just compromise to live.
"However, there is no hope for this. When I was in my teens and twenties, I still had passion, but now, I am getting old. My heart is also old, and it can no longer beat. The inspiration has dried up and it's useless now."
Ken felt that it was unimaginable that he, a 40-year-old man, could not win the custody of his children.What mood and qualifications do you have to pursue music?It was played by inexperienced children, and there were countless people who played it, but how many people are really famous?
"I have basically destroyed this kind of thing. There is no way to get it back. I am no longer what I was when I was young."
"I didn't ask you to change yourself. Do you remember the lyrics you wrote when you were a teenager?" Mary looked at him with a smile.
"Of course, now it seems that I was really naive at that time. It was basically the so-called second-year illness. Now, I don't dare to look at those things. It's just a dream I had when I didn't understand. Now Time has passed. It's like a favorite drink from childhood."