NFBE Chapter 384 Things That Cannot Be Spoken Of
Chapter 384 Things That Cannot Be Spoken Of
Barbara hasn't been in a very good mood lately.
One of the reasons is the upcoming public performance.
In the city-state of wind and pastoral songs, the folk songs that have been sung are those that flow from the strings of the lyre plucked by the fingertips of bards.
At first, her singing voice was quite unfamiliar to most residents, and they were not used to it at all.
However, Mondstadt is, after all, a city named after freedom.
Pleasant new things are always easy to accept.
Of course, this wouldn't be complete without the help, both overt and covert, from a certain "good brother who always supports his sister."
However, along with the singing came not only joy, but also a series of minor troubles.
For example, there are fans who are a little too enthusiastic, or there are requests to perform at the upcoming Fuuka Festival.
Remember Sister Victoria's eager expression when she made the request? After all, it was a great opportunity to expand the church's influence.
Barbara was never good at refusing people, especially Sister Victoria's request, which was a last resort for her.
Because the hymns and prayers that the nuns are good at are not so suitable for an occasion like the Feast of Winds.
But even after accepting the commission, problems continued to arise.
Although her singing voice is recognized by most residents, this is the first time she has performed on stage at such a grand occasion as the Feng Hua Festival.
Barbara felt a little uncertain, and the "Barbara, go for it!" slogan she used to use to encourage herself was less effective.
Moreover, the songs to be performed have not yet been decided.
Even if she used up all her spicy drinks, it seemed like she wouldn't last until the day she had a burst of inspiration.
The girl was distressed, but what frustrated her even more was something else entirely.
For example, right now, Barbara is changing the patient's dressing, brushing aside her hair, and when she looks up, her bright eyes suddenly darken.
Mu Feng hurriedly pulled Fischl into the church, where they were talking rapidly and solemnly with a pastor.
Barbara didn't bother to decipher the fragmented words; her gaze was fixed solely on their tightly clasped hands.
A bittersweet feeling suddenly welled up in my heart.
It was a very complex emotion—a sense of loss, emptiness, and grievance, like lemon juice mixed into a spicy drink.
It's like having your favorite doll stolen.
This wasn't unfounded; similar feelings began to accumulate as his older brother spent less and less time at home.
She could comfort herself with her work with the Knights on weekdays, but the "busyness" on her days off was just another excuse.
The older brother is very popular, especially among girls.
This should be a happy thing, shouldn't it?
Barbara tried to convince herself that she should be happy about it, like a good little sister.
But clearly, this is just her deceiving herself.
She couldn't suppress her distress and disappointment because she was no longer that naive little girl.
Her brother cannot, and should not, stay by her side forever.
That's just a poorly made lie from a fairy tale.
He will eventually let go and leave, to live his own life with one of the girls, whoever she may be.
Then, little by little, slowly but resolutely, I drifted away from her.
Finally, he will disappear completely from her life, just as abruptly as he had entered her life a few years ago.
This was the fate that Barbara recognized, an almost predetermined and unchangeable ending.
This is too cruel, she thought every night.
Born into an elite family like Gunnhild, and with an outstanding older sister, her brilliance was simply too dazzling.
Even a sunny girl can have a side that lacks confidence.
Barbara's wish is to shine as brightly as her sister.
She made tireless efforts in this regard, mastering swordsmanship and etiquette, hoping that one day she could stand shoulder to shoulder with that figure.
But reality is not always as perfect as the story.
When hard work is no longer enough, and when her older sister's figure grows ever more distant, the girl falls into deep confusion and helplessness.
At that very moment, an uninvited guest entered her life in an unexpected way.
For a long time, the term "brother" was quite unfamiliar to Barbara, as far back as she could remember.
It wasn't until the day Simon, the father, brought home a strange boy that the word slowly began to take on a concrete form.
He would bring spicy drinks home during breaks in training and secretly drink them with her under the covers at night.
Every time I hear her humming haltingly, her eyes are always filled with unconditional tenderness and encouragement.
His light is intense yet warm; he is someone you can confide in when you're tired, and a shoulder to lean on when you're sad.
How much of Barbara's "amazing self-recovery ability," which others envy, actually comes from the shadow behind her?
The girl closed her diary, humming a lighthearted tune, and skillfully pushed open the door to the next room.
Mu Feng handed her a light red drink without any surprise, then continued working on the documents Qin had left behind.
That's right, today is the day the romance light novel is serialized.
This means that the head of the family has gone on strike.
Barbara bit the straw and swung her legs.
She doesn't need to do anything; just quietly enjoying the tranquility of the moment is enough to fill her heart with happiness.
"elder brother."
"what's wrong?"
"Hehe~ It's nothing, I just wanted to call you."
Meaningless conversations always resulted in a helpless pat on the head or a pinch on the cheek, which was exactly what she wanted.
Unconditional pampering breeds boundless dependence.
It grows almost uncontrollably. Day after day, it shows no sign of waning with age.
She vaguely realized that something was wrong, but what was wrong with being a little clingy to her brother as a younger sister?
Barbara comforted herself with this thought and continued to do as she pleased.
But as she grew older, this dependence was threatened, and the girl fell into another kind of panic.
Fear gave rise to something else; she had never realized that her possessiveness was so strong and irresistible.
Her brother can only belong to her; no one can take him away.
By the time she realized this, it was too late.
Lord Barbatos, please forgive my sins.
The girl repeatedly repented and felt terrified in her heart because she knew she shouldn't have had such feelings.
This abnormal possessiveness has crossed the line. If my brother knew, he would be very disappointed, right?
Barbara's only confidante became the center of the vortex, and she could only digest her distress alone, with little effect.
What should she do?
Should she pretend to be a well-behaved younger sister? She didn't want to, and she wasn't willing to accept it.
But what would happen if this dependence were allowed to continue to grow? Barbara didn't dare to think about it at all.
She was afraid to see the disappointment in her brother's eyes.
This is a difficult choice.
Like, should she step forward now?
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Note: (Cosmic Safety Statement) No orthopedics involved. Please refer to the introductory chapter of this simulation for details.