NFBE Chapter 166 (4k) People I Don't Want to Forget, People I Shouldn't Forget
Chapter 166 (4k) People I Don't Want to Forget, People I Shouldn't Forget
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When I woke up this morning, I didn't know why I was crying.
Lately, I've been experiencing this frequently: dreams always fade away exceptionally quickly, but the feeling of frustration, regret, and loss lingers even after I wake up.
He involuntarily opened his mouth, as if wanting to say someone's name, but in the end he just smiled helplessly and said self-deprecatingly:
"Hey, you're past the age of being a chuunibyou (middle school syndrome) kid, so stop fantasizing about having the perfect girl of your dreams."
I get up, get dressed and wash up, everything is the same as before... Even if I can't remember the past, the habits won't change.
Stepping out of my dormitory room, I couldn't help but look across the hall. The tightly closed door seemed ready to open at any moment, revealing a girl smiling and greeting me. She then took my arm and asked in a soft voice where I was planning to go next.
But the door remained tightly shut, showing no sign of opening.
Yun Fuyu hesitated for a moment, then walked to the door and swiped her room card.
A message popped up on the small display screen: This room is already occupied, and the room card you are using is not compatible. To contact the room owner, please press the doorbell.
A photo of the room's owner popped up; it was a strange woman with skin as dark as Carol's mother's.
"As expected, it was all just an illusion."
Yun Fuyu sighed and left.
……
This is the fifth day since he recovered from schizophrenia and woke up.
According to Möbius, his mental illness might not have been completely cured, which explains his many inexplicable déjà vu experiences. She confidently asserted that it was definitely due to a deficiency of neurotransmitters in his brain, leading to symptoms of depression and subsequently triggering schizophrenia. She added, "Don't worry, just take more medication."
However, Yun Fuyu hid all the medicine she gave him and didn't take it.
Because I always felt that this wasn't a bad thing, but rather a sign that fate was urging me to search for it.
But he also felt that, from a certain perspective, his mental illness might really be incurable.
But no matter what, Yun Fuyu remains optimistic and cheerful on the surface, though she occasionally stares blankly into the void and sheds tears, which everyone has gotten used to.
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At the Möbius Institute.
Her fingers tapped on the table, making a sound that was like a tapping or a thumping.
When Yun Fuyu thought about this, she even felt that she must be crazy.
Mebius stopped tapping and sighed, "I have to say, you're so boring now, not at all like the Ah Yun I remember."
The girl with short, dark blue hair had a calm expression, but her eyes held a deep, overwhelming sadness that seemed ready to burst at any moment.
"I'm waiting for you, I miss you so much... But why haven't you come to find Xi'er..."
Yun Fuyu's smile was very faint, almost forced. He asked, "Is that so?"
Möbius: "Nonsense! You used to be a total jerk, spouting platitudes all the time. It was disgusting, but what could I do when our ideas aligned? Now you're like a tool, just doing whatever I say without ever thinking for yourself."
The girl nodded emphatically, biting her lip to hold back tears: "It's so dark here... Seele is so scared..."
Yun Fuyu sighed: "Perhaps it's because I lost my memory. I always feel that we have a deep relationship, yet I also feel that we are destined to be apart forever."
Mebius rolled his eyes: "Is this a new scumbag quote?"
She slammed her hand on the table: "Fine, think what you want! What does it have to do with me? (Muttering) Klein is definitely better..."
In Möbius's memory, they were more like "close friends" than "potential lovers." Since this guy's brain is messed up, while it's regrettable, it's not as regrettable as one might imagine.
Anyway, there's Klein.
The girl was so sad she almost cried out, but she forced herself to smile: "It's okay, I understand you. After Seele lost her memory, she also ignored you. Perhaps this is the punishment I deserve..."
After saying that, she bit her lip and said, "But...but..."
"..."
She sobbed alone.
Möbius left, and Yun Fuyu sat for a while before also leaving. Only the girl in the illusion remained, weeping, but she too vanished in an instant.
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Training room.
After slaughtering hundreds of Honkai Beasts in the "noob-slaying" session, Yun Fuyu took a few deep breaths and exited the simulation training.
After a short rest and a bottle of salt water, he wiped his mouth and stepped into the training room once again.
The lights went out, and the reflective metal walls gradually dimmed. The surroundings slowly brightened, and we found ourselves in ruins.
I'm used to it. Ruins are actually quite challenging. You need to find suitable hiding places, fighting grounds, or ambush sites, especially in scenarios you frequently encounter during missions. A full 30% of the simulation training is based on ruins.
The mission objectives are displayed in the corner of the view: 1. Kill ten Honkai Beasts of Temple rank or higher; 2. Kill one hundred Honkai Beasts of any rank.
For Yun Fuyu, this was still a game of crushing noobs; there was no need to hide, he could just kill, kill, kill and be done with it.
Suddenly, everything blurred before my eyes.
The short-haired blue-haired girl stood beside him, looking around with him, and said with a slight smile, "This scenery looks familiar."
Her eyes, however, were filled with sorrow: "This should be the story of the four hundred and fifty-fifth reincarnation. Seele died here..."
Yun Fuyu seemed oblivious, charging straight towards the direction with the most Honkai Beasts. Limbs flew everywhere in his path, a truly gruesome sight.
She whispered, "You...you're making Seele feel so scared."
The killing session was exceptionally short; half an hour passed in the blink of an eye. The mission objective was achieved, and he exited the simulation training.
During another rest, Kevin came over and said to him with concern, "Yun Fuyu, your killing intent is very strong. What's wrong? What happened?"
The girl seemed to be pleading: "Don't suppress yourself anymore, you'll forget everything if you keep doing this... Seele... Seele is so scared..."
Yun Fuyu pursed her lips and shook her head: "It's just a way to vent my confusion about amnesia, it's nothing."
Kevin was still worried: "How about we go on a mission together in a couple of days, and I'll take you on a trip while we're at it? Maybe that will make you feel better."
"I'm here, I'm right here, why can't you see me...?"
Yun Fuyu was silent for a moment, then nodded: "Okay, I'll listen to you."
Because he suffers from mental illness and is a powerful fusion warrior, his existence is extremely dangerous, and the Flame Chaser keeps him under strict control. Only Kevin might be able to keep him in check.
Although I don't really want to go out, it's not a bad idea to go out for a stroll.
Seeing that he agreed, Kevin breathed a sigh of relief and patted his shoulder: "Okay, think positively. Even if you have amnesia, you still have everyone to support you!"
"I remember, this is the story from the 455th reincarnation. Back then, you were radiant, and you felt immense pity for Seele, who had become a Herrscher, but in the end, you still had to watch helplessly as the Herrscher died."
"Were you ever this confused back then?"
"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry..."
Yun Fuyu chuckled and punched Kevin on the shoulder: "Go to hell! That punch really hurt!!"
Kevin pretended to be in pain and played around with him.
"The girl laughed because of his laughter, yet she also wept because of his laughter."
Laugh at him for still being happy, weep at him for forgetting himself.
Like a clown behind the scenes, staging a farcical drama that no one can see.
……
As the day draws to a close
The cafeteria was his paradise; eating something there could ease his mood. However, according to Möbius, it was mainly because dopamine was released when eating, so it wasn't as pleasurable as taking drugs directly.
Yun Fuyu listened attentively, then turned around and hid the medicine she was given, pretending she had already taken it.
So, he really is quite ill, isn't he?
The girl followed behind him, stepping on his shadow as she walked forward.
Suddenly, it stopped.
Looking up at the sign for stir-fried shredded pancakes, Yun Fuyu queued up to get her food, enjoying it immensely, and marveled that the cafeteria even had such an uncommon (relatively speaking) item.
She watched him eat his fill with a smile, and seemingly subconsciously asked, "Shall we go to the dessert shop together tonight?"
After that, the nights are free time to arrange.
Standing at the crossroads, he circled around for a while, feeling like he should do something that night, but couldn't think of anything. In the end, he headed back towards his dormitory.
I spotted a gray cat by the roadside and darted over, but in that fleeting glimpse, I caught a glimpse of its eyes—beautiful, captivating light purple.
It made him really want to catch the cat, but in the end he gave up the idea.
The girl stared intently at the cat that had run off into the distance, her expression a mixture of anger, sorrow, and sigh: "So that's how it is. Alicia has always been able to observe us from the perspective of the Great Free Heaven..."
...Alicia?
As if she had heard some key words, Yun Fuyu perked up and looked around. She saw two girls not far away—one with typical light blonde hair, and the other with a flowing pink ponytail, who was clearly Alicia.
Yun Fuyu couldn't help but step forward, find a corner to hide in, and strain her ears to listen to what they were saying.
"I saw Yun Fuyu again today. He's been out for several days now!"
"Okay, okay, don't worry~ It's just a minor mental issue, it doesn't stop him from being a lovely child!"
The girl with long, light blonde hair looked as if she had eaten a bitter melon: "Cute? Are you kidding me? You've never seen him when he's crazy, have you?"
Alicia's voice became curious: "Oh? So you've seen them? Tell me about it!"
Unable to resist Alicia's coquettish pleading, the girl with long, light blonde hair looked around to make sure no one was paying attention to them, then lowered her voice and said:
"Just the day before yesterday, in the training room, he suddenly stood guard at the door of my training room for half an hour. I was terrified and it took me a while before I dared to peek out and talk to him."
"You have no idea how outrageous it was back then. He was actually waiting for Seele! But the problem is, where in this world is Seele?"
Sirory looked utterly desperate: "This is really terrifying! Sister Ellie, if you have any ideas, please transfer him away as soon as possible! I never want to be startled again!"
Alicia smiled and patted Sirory's head, comforting her, "Okay, don't be scared. Think about it, what a cheerful and outgoing boy Ah Yun used to be? You liked him quite a bit back then, didn't you?"
Sirory shook his head: "Don't mention it, don't mention it. I just want to get away from it now."
The short-haired girl clenched her fist and squeezed out the name through gritted teeth: "Alicia... no, Erinis..."
She really set up a huge scheme.
Every detail emphasizes that the Xi'er in Yun Fuyu's memories is all hallucination, all a product of schizophrenia, a terrifying "illness" that shouldn't exist. This makes him constantly suppress his sense of déjà vu, making it increasingly difficult for him to recall her.
Alicia: "Relax, he won't hurt anyone, there's absolutely no way to deny that. I'll talk to him next time we meet."
The pink-haired girl lightly tossed her ponytail, her smile both narcissistic and beautiful: "Why not just make him fall in love with Alicia! ~ That way, it seems all the trouble will be solved! Could the real Alicia really be less appealing than a non-existent illusion?"
Sirory nodded vigorously: "What you said makes a lot of sense, and I admire your dedication! But I have to say, aren't you going to take care of the women in your team?"
Alicia's momentum immediately deflated: "Yeah, although Ayun is nice, there are countless beautiful girls in the world who seem even better..."
Alicia suddenly turned around and, before Yun Fuyu, who was eavesdropping, could escape, she stood directly in front of him, put her hands together and pressed them against her face, and smiled sweetly at him.
Hi? Long time no see! Did you miss me?
"..."
“…”
Yun Fuyu scratched his head: "Uh, I have amnesia, I don't remember anything about us. Alicia, can you tell me about it?"
Alicia tapped her lips with her index finger and said with a grin, "You're the only boy Alicia has ever liked in her life, is that enough?"
Yun Fuyu's head throbbed: "Huh?..."
He already "admired" Alicia, and he couldn't stand her words at all! Was she using this to test the officers?
But suddenly, it was as if a bucket of cold water had been poured over me, and my panicked heartbeat immediately calmed down, and my rationality returned to normal.
Virvi said that Alicia has a problem.
Of course, it wasn't just these things that calmed him down. It was also the repeated calls of "Seele".
—The voice may not be real, but every word she said was true.
What God bears witness to must be the only, immortal, and indestructible truth in all the world.
Yun Fuyu's gaze was calm: "Alisia, I've forgotten many things from the past and don't know what happened. But I do know that our relationship isn't as close as you claim."
He had lost his soul countless times because of the name "Seele," but for Alicia, there was only the emotion from the stories in his memory, nothing else.
A single piece of evidence is insufficient. Both Virvi and Kiana in his dream claimed to have a close relationship with Seele, and he was more inclined to believe them.
Alicia nodded regretfully: "Oh my, someone can actually resist Alicia's charm, as expected of you~"
Yun Fuyu: "So, let's talk properly. Don't say things like 'you like me' or 'I like you.' I'm scared when I hear 'like' without any prior memory of it."
Perhaps it was his calmness that influenced Alicia, and the naturally romantic pink-haired girl also toned it down a bit.
She glanced at Sirory, who was hiding, from a distance, and then said, "So that's how you see me? How hurtful."
Alicia: "So, is there anything you want to say to me?"
Yun Fuyu: "Maybe not. In this situation, I just feel like you're a complete stranger."
Alicia looked at him in surprise, her eyes falling and her expression turning sad: "Fine, if that's the case, then it means I appeared at the wrong time. Let's meet again when you're happy..."
Her dejected appearance was indeed reassuring, and Yun Fuyu couldn't help but open her mouth to ask her to stay, but in the end she just pursed her lips and quietly watched her leave.
Regardless of the truth, now is certainly not a good time for him to meet and talk with Alicia.
I'm sorry, I can't trust you completely like I used to.
Elysia.
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If this continues, the God of Gods will "recognize" a new "Seele".