NFBE Chapter 76
Chapter 76
Jinse's watery eyes froze, her body suddenly stopped, and her lips opened as if she wanted to say something, but no sound came out. As if a switch had been flipped, her tears flowed even more profusely.
Nalan Jingwen sighed almost imperceptibly, reached out and pulled him into her arms, stroking his smooth, black hair.
“I told you, I would take you home. When I first asked you if you wanted to come with me, it wasn’t to make you my servant. I would give you a title, to marry me as my husband, with dignity and honor.”
Jinse suddenly pushed her away, flustered and looking at her with increasingly dark and sad eyes.
"No... I don't want to..."
"This servant does not wish to follow Your Highness!"
Nalan Jingwen wanted to grab his wrist, but then noticed the injury on his wrist out of the corner of her eye and let go.
"Not 'follow'! 'Marry'!"
"You clearly love me, don't you? Why are you unwilling? Is it because you feel you are not good enough for me?"
Jinse just smiled, a very bitter smile, and shook her head with red eyes.
"Does Your Highness like me?"
Nalan Jingwen fell silent, his dark eyes fixed on him without uttering a word.
"The prince doesn't like me, but that night I took advantage of his weakness and we had a wild night together. If it weren't for that night, the prince might not even know that I exist."
“I know you want to take me away because you have taken my body. If I were a virgin, I would definitely go with you.”
"Kenu is already a withered flower, as you can see, how filthy this body is, how many people have defiled it."
As he spoke, he unbuttoned his clothes, revealing his battered body. A look of embarrassment and pain crossed his face as he exposed all his vulnerabilities to her.
How could he not have fantasized about it? Ever since the day she said she would take him away, every time he thought about it, his heart would leap with joy, even though he didn't know how much of what she said was true.
He thought that if she really came back and took him away, he would take one last gamble, follow his heart, and promise her that even without her favor, as long as she could occasionally think of him or catch a glimpse of him from afar, he would never regret it, even if he were to be shattered to pieces in the future.
But... he didn't wait for her; instead, he witnessed her seeing the most embarrassing and disgusting scene of herself.
How to do?
Why did you do this to him?! Why give him hope only to shatter it with your own hands?!
How cruel!
Jinse's hands trembled, and she closed her eyes, afraid to look at Nalan Jingwen, lest she see disgust and loathing in her eyes, something she couldn't bear...
Nalan Jing saw his trembling hand, clearly in pain, yet still unwilling to let go, stubbornly so, which was heartbreaking.
She knew he cared, cared about the embarrassment she had seen him in, and that he couldn't get over it himself.
There was no mockery or disdainful look as he had expected; instead, a pair of warm hands covered his body, gently stroking his scars.
He slowly opened his eyes and was met with a pair of deep, dark eyes, and was momentarily stunned.
He heard her say, "I know what you care about. If you care about these scars on your body, then I will search the world for the best doctors to heal your scars. If you care about your status, I will free you from slavery, erase all your past, and let you be my husband with a clean conscience."
“You care that I see your miserable state, and you don’t dare to face me with that body, but you never asked what I thought. At first, when I said I wanted to take you away, it might have been out of a sense of responsibility, but now it’s not. I see your miserable state and know that you are not doing well, so I am determined to take you away. I don’t want you to live that kind of life anymore. I feel sorry for you and I care about you.”
Perhaps it was the self-pitying figure under the crabapple tree that night, or perhaps it was the clear tears that fell into her heart, or perhaps it was the awe she felt from his extraordinary vitality.
They still managed to survive in that cannibalistic place.
She had to admit that she felt sorry for this man, and even if she didn't like him now, it didn't mean she wouldn't in the future.
Jinse stared at her blankly, forgetting to shed tears, unable to believe what she was hearing.
"But...it's not worth it..."
"There's no such thing as worth it or not. I always do things as I please."
Jinse lowered her head, her vision blurred, and kept stroking the ring.
Do not……
Not just these...
He suddenly raised his head and said, word by word, "This servant does not wish to."
He knelt down before Nalan Jingwen and kowtowed twice.
"I beg Your Highness to release me."
Nalan Jingwen frowned, she didn't understand, why?
She looked at him silently, and Jinse also remained silent, stubbornly refusing to get up. The air seemed to freeze for a moment.
Finally, she let out a long sigh.
"Can you tell me why?"
Jinse simply looked at her without saying a word.
Nalan Jingwen's lips curled into a faint smile.
"I understand. How long do you plan to stay?"
"tomorrow."
Why wouldn't they even let their injuries heal before leaving?
She nodded, raised her hand and touched his hair. It felt so nice, she liked it very much, and wondered if she would ever be able to touch it again.
"Very well, I will send someone to escort you away first thing tomorrow morning. You probably won't be able to return to Xuqing Pavilion. Where can you go?"
Jinse lowered his eyes, wanting to remember the warmth of her palm and the gentle touch of her hair.
"I have somewhere to go."
"Alright, since that's the case, then I wish you escape from this sea of suffering."
Xiang Chunshan.
After she finished speaking, she turned and left without looking at him again.
Jinse stared blankly at her departing figure. The moment the door closed, she seemed to lose all her strength, collapsed to the ground, clutched her collar tightly, and sobbed uncontrollably.
Nalan Jingwen paused slightly before returning to his room.
As soon as he lay down, he heard the person next to him say leisurely, "Why doesn't Your Highness just tie him up and take him back to the manor?"
"Why aren't you sleeping yet?"
"I dare not sleep, fearing that Your Highness might have something to instruct me."
Nalan Jingwen closed his eyes and said, "He wants to leave. Even if I force him to stay by my side, he will not be happy."
"Happiness isn't important; what's important is being by your side, isn't it?"
Nalan Jingwen replied, "I do not wish for someone I care about to suffer by my side. If that is the case, I would rather let him go, as long as he is happy. Similarly, if you wish to leave, I will also let you go."
"Is it because you want to make your servants happy?"
"It's because you want to leave."
The two are different. Letting Jinse go was because she wanted to see him happy and doing well, and she didn't want him to suffer by her side. As for Rong Hengyu, he let him go simply because he wanted to leave.
The people around him suddenly fell silent and stopped speaking.
Nalan Jingwen closed his eyes and went to sleep, ignoring him.
However, Rong Hengyu turned to the side, and the moonlight shone through the cracks in the window, illuminating the dark room and allowing him to see Nalan Jingwen's beautiful face.
He gazed at her silhouette in the moonlight, a complex emotion flickering in his eyes. Finally, he drew closer, until he completely possessed her, before closing his eyes and falling asleep.